And that's what I will be doing one week from today cause it'll be MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This old gal will be turning 24, woo! But wow, 24! I mean I know that's not old but then you get to thinking, I'm 24, single, no kids...HELL YEAH! I don't know if it's like this is other places, but I can tell yall in the south, most women are either pregnant, or have kids by now. So I'd like to think I've got a heads up! Usually, when you're a kid you only think about what you want for your birthday, but this year I've been thinking about everything that I've done, and everything that I've been through.  So I've come a pretty long way, even between 18 and now.

For those who've known me for awhile should remember the guy I dated when I was 18, Robert. Now when I was 18 I had dropped out of school, had no job and still lived at home. Well after he cheated on me and I dumped him, I turned over a new leaf and grew the F up. I got my first job at a grocery store, got my GED and started dating a guy named Brian. Now things with Brian didn't last that long but I'm still friends with him to this day. After getting my GED I went to college for Cosmetology. In the course of 2 years I left the grocery store and started working for a, I guess you would call it Sporting Goods store. I also recieved my degree in Cosmetology and soon after, my license. (WOO!) On the day of my graduation I started work for Ford Motor Company, working at a local dealership. Crazy, right?

But honestly, I learned alot from working at a car dealership, and also become Ford Warranty certified. After 2 years working for the dealership I was let go due to "lack of work". I was single, but on occassion seeing a guy named Morgan, nothing too special. So, after being laid off I was out of work for 6 months. Any everyday (with the exception of weekends) I was out looking for a job, putting in whever would accept my resume. Now, when I was working for Ford, I was making close to $12 an hour plus commission. By this time I was 20, and had just moved out and got a place with my brother. Here me and my brother were, BOTH had brand new cars, and a place to pay for. He also worked at the dealership, I was let go and a week later he was fired. Call it, re-staffing. I called it bullshit. Ok, anyway.....

Well come the 6th month of being without a job, I was starting to think about putting in for fast food places, and other places like that. I even considered getting two jobs, anything to pay the bills. Then, I started looking towards Law Enforcement. I'd just so happened to go by the State Patrol in Milledgeville and spoke with a guy who worked there. Then things kinda took off. I had also put in at a local 911 center, in addition to the State Patrol. So test taking, polly graphs, blood work, interviews and the 911 center saying "You're pretty much hired". Now, the 911 center paid less than the state patrol, but I was willing to take anything! So I said I would take the job with the 911 center and went to get my blood work done and pee in the cup. As I was walking out of the hospital I got a call on my cell, from one of the guys from the State Patrol. He said that I pretty much had the job, and not to take the one at the 911 center. So, of course, I had to call the 911 center and decline the job. Let me tell yall, that was the best decision I could've ever made. I'm very bless and I love my job! This is the best job I've ever had!!!

So now, here I am, about to be 24 in just a few days, 3 careers under my belt, and living a great life. I'm still single, but that's ok. I believe that one day me and Calvin will be together. I adore him with every fiber of my being, and if that's not love, I don't know what is. And if not, then I will meet a man that I'll one day marry and love for the rest of my life. So being single doesn't really bother me as much as it used to. Everything happens in due time. I never thought that any of this would happen to me. I've met alot of great people, had alot of great experiences, loved, lost, laughed (alot) and shared moments with people that I'll never forget.

I just wanna say to anyone that reads this, I'm glad that you're in my life as well! If we talk everyday, or haven't talked in awhile, you have all touched my life in some way and I'm very grateful for that. I love you all!!!! Sorry for the extremely long post. =)

NO! This game that me and Calvin are playing is kinda starting to get old. He finally made a comment about a week ago saying that he 'knew' that I had a crush on him. Ok...yeah, I do. Will I tell you flat out? No. I will say this though. The day after he said that I decided that I wouldn't call him for 2-3 days, just to see what he would do. Well guess how long it took before he called me?

One. Day.

That's right, one day people! The day after that day my phone rings and it's him, "Hey, I hadn't talked to you in a few days, just wanted to see what you're doing" Yeah buddy, sure. So now it's just to the point where we both continue to tell each other "You've got the crush" "No, you do!" It's like we're back in kindergarten! *pulls hair out* If he likes me, he needs to go ahead and make the move, and stop dicking around! Because we ALL know that I'm too chicken shit to admit anything!

GAH! That is all.

So I was looking at everyone who I have on my friends list and like maybe 3 still use LJ. I've lost contact with everyone from here. It kinda makes me sad because a few years ago I spent all my time on the computer building friendships with these people. Then we all grew up and got lives. Haha

I don't have anything really to report today so I'll stop here for now.

See yas!

P.S we should totally bring LJ back..it used to be fun!

Wow..it really has been long since I've been here. Maybe I should start writing again. I doubt anyone even remembers me anymore. Well..let me catch you up on what's been going on with me...

This year has been a pretty good year so far, I've gotten a great job working with the GA State Patrol as a radio operator. I've been doing shows for the past few months at a local bar and grill, which is awesome! I'm going to be on a self-published album that a friend is working on. Still single and that's ok. I've been out on my own for almost 3 years now and I look at that as finally growing up. I've got a steady career, a great family and awesome co-workers. If the friend department...since I started working for the state patrol I really haven't had time to do much of anything else so my friends and I have sort of drifted apart. It sucks, but I'm dealing with it. We all talk from time to time. Also they all have boyfriends now and are usually with them when I come home.

I do have this HUGE crush on a trooper, but I'm way too chicken shit to say anything. But he's a great guy! Sweet, and caring and funny too! Not bad to look at either. Almost a complete package deal. I don't think he dates chicks like me though, but I don't want to say anything and him not feel the same way..then it would be wierd between us. I can settle for his friendship until he makes a move..if he ever does, or wants to for that matter.

Well I think that's about it really..I could babble about a few more things but I'm at work (like always) so I should get back to that. Maybe I'll start writing here again..guess we'll just have to wait and see.

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my list, so let me know with whom I am friends!


1. Your Middle Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite CURRENT movie/TV show:

5. Favorite CURRENT Song:

6. Favorite Bands/Artists:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?

10. Whats your philosophy on life?

11. Would you have my back in a fight?

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

13. What is your favorite memory of us?

14. Would you give me a kidney?

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

16. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

17. Can we get together and make a cake?

18. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?

19. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

20. Do you think I'm a good person?

21. Would you drive across country with me?

22. Do you think I'm attractive?

23. If you could change anything about me, would you?

24. What do you wear to sleep?

25. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

26. Would you go on a date with me if I asked you?

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

If you want one, send me your address to my email!!

southern_belle_143@yahoo.com

Put something on the heading like "Here's my address" so I won't think you're spam and delete you!!

Murry Churimus!

Ok..summing up quickly for what you've missed.

Drank a few.
Saw some good bands.
Partied hard on Halloween.
Still no love life.

That about sums it up. Haha. Anyway..this year hasn't been so bad, thank God! I've met some great people in the local music scene. Became closer with a few friends, and also lost a friend. I'm sure no one even has me on their LJ friends list anymore, haha.

Don't forget about myspace..I'm always on there.

www.myspace.com/mochelle85

Maybe I'll start to write in this again. Who knows. With two jobs and very little time, we'll just have to wait and see.

Til next time, much love.
Chelle

I doubt anyone still reads these things but just incase. My Yahoo is screwed up and won't let me into my michelle_the_goddess_2003 account. So until then add southern_belle_143 and I'll talk to you on there. Mmkay? MMMKAYYYYYBYE

I'm in a band. And they rock.

Mr.Greenleaf


WUAT!!!

This is for a person who wrote a very big and 'loud' post to me. I just wanted to say that if you wanted me deleted darlin, just do it. There was really no need for a post, I would've known sooner or later that I wasn't on your friends list anymore. But it's alllllllll ok. And yes, part of it was my consern when she came to me, upset and worried about the things that had happened. And when YOU were going through a hard time, *I* was there for you. And if you would've came to me and actually told me your side, MAYBE I wouldn't have to choose either side. We were all friends at one time, but now it looks like it's just me and her, and that's fine. Since you say that I should trust you and things like that..please..give me a reason.

R.I.P Mitch Hedberg. =(

You're one funny mutha fuckah.

http://profiles.myspace.com/users/17043665

Add me, bitches.

I've never actually had anyone for V-day. Last year I was with Billy and we spent about 30 minutes together, and it sucked.

Anyone wanna be my valentine?

So..does anyone remember Chad? Yeah, my ex for the 4958375896th time Chad? Anyway, last time we dated, we blew up at each other on the phone and that was it. Last night he calls me and says he's sorry for what happened, and said alot of things that kinda made sense. Anyway, we're back together now. I told him this is the last time I will date him, if he screws this up..no more. Period. And I'm GOING to get him a job this time. I want to help him sort his life out so bad, because I know he's a good guy deep down, he just needs someone to be there for him. He says that I'm the only one he wants to be with, end of story. He told me this song reminded me of him everytime he heard it because the last time he saw me, was when I was on a date with Dallas. Now how LONG ago was that?! Lol anyway..I need to get ready for class so I was just saying..I'm back with Chad, yay. Internet relationships suck ass! No more for Chelle. Oh, and here's the lyrics.


"Over And Over"
(feat. Tim McGraw)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause it’s all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it
Nooo

I can’t wait to see you
Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes
That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes
And it’s a shame that we got to spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same things
Over and over again
Ohh
But I think she’s leaving
Ooh man she’s leaving
I don’t know what else to do
(I Can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again yeah
And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it
Nooo

I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath you took right in front of me
When you said that u would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keep playing in my head
Over and over again
Playing my head
Over and over again
Ohh
I think she’s leaving
Ooh man she’s leaving
I don’t know what else to do
(I Can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo

(Now that I’ve realized that I’m going down
From all this pain you’ve put me through
Every time I close my eyes I lock it down oh
I can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo

Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
And I can’t keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah
Cause its all in my head
I think about it over and over again
I replay it over and over again
And I can’t take it I can’t shake it
Nooo

Over and Over again
Over and Over again
Cause it’s all in my head

So umm...I just got dumped. And as agverated as I am right now..it sucks. He said I pushed him away, I denied him. I was always making him feel like shit. Some things you just can't help, and I can't help the way I am. So I'm going to make this a public post, I know he reads it sometimes..I'm not going to say names or anything. He might get pissed because I'm writing things in here about us but some people that read my LJ actually care about me..

So yeah, this sucks really bad. I guess we both tried to hang on to the relationship..but it was slipping. Apparently. =\ I just kept screwing up..so I'm blaming it on me, heh. Like almost every other relationship. You know..I can hold OTHER people's relationships together, but can't even keep one my fucking self. So this isn't going to be long because I'm kinda tearing up..I just want to say this.

I'm sorry for the hurt
I'm sorry for all the pain
I'm sorry I could never be the girlfriend you wanted me to be
I tried, but I just couldn't..and I'm sorry.

Darrell Abbot aka Dimebag Darrell was the heart and soul of both Pantera and Damageplan. The metal world won't be the same without him. R.I.P Dimebag, your fans love you. My prayers go out to Vinnie Paul and the rest of the Damageplan members, Patrick and Bobzilla.

Only a true, sick person could ruin rock music. Save that shit for the rap music, don't bring it to ours.

\m/

( ) go out with me?
( ) give me your number?
( ) let me kiss you?
( ) have sex with me?
( ) play an s.m. scene with me?
( ) watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
( ) let me take you out to dinner?
( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere?
( ) take a shower with me?
( ) be my gf/bf?
( ) have a fling with me?
( ) listen to me if i called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
( ) buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
( ) take me home for the night?
( ) let me sleep in your bed?
( ) sing car karaoke with me?
( ) sit in the doctors office with me because i didn't want to go alone?
( ) come & pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
( ) re-post this for me to answer your questions?